I’ve been resting in my home since I had my second baby on March 1. I heard about the Coronavirus going around but didn’t pay too much attention to it. Now Las Vegas is suppose to be in a quarantine as of March 18th and all nonessential businesses are suppose to be shut down for 30 days. 

The news, internet and word on the street is crazy and overwhelming.

I’m an optimistic person who believes there is something good in any situation and I also like to remind myself that everything is temporary, even this life. So I keep telling myself and everyone I talk to that everything will get better soon, and I truly believe that! I strongly believe in speaking things into existence. 

It’s hard not to get caught up with all the negative information from all these sources. I find myself doubting my faith and wondering, what if this is really the end, what if everyone gets sick and theres no cure or help, what if the government tries to take over completely, what if people start going crazy and harming other citizens, what if my babies get sick, what if my husband gets sick or even worse, what if he doesn’t come home, what if I get sick and have to be apart from my kids? A bunch of “what ifs” that have reasoning behind them and could very well happen. 

And if one of those or all of those “what ifs” happen, then what? 

I always wondered what would happen if I died or someone close to me died. I never had someone very close pass away but I thought if something happened to my parents or siblings how would I even keep living my life. How would I move on? Since my dad passed away eight weeks ago I realized, life goes on and you just keep living. 

So if one of my What Ifs happened, life would still go on. And that’s what I want to focus on. This is temporary. Although it may feel eternal for some people, its going to pass. Like everything in our lives. 

Since getting married I’ve become more active in my church and every time I sit in church I know I am exactly where I should be. I have always known God is real and he loves me but now as an adult that is raising a family and needing guidance I am learning so much more about God and who he really is. My dad told me to memorize a bible verse, 2 Timothy 1:7 “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”

This means if I feel fear, its not coming from God and if it’s not coming from God, I don’t want it. 

I refuse to let fear take over. I cannot control what is going on or how it will turn out but I can control how I feel and how I make my family feel. It’s so important to me that my daughter feels safe, happy and free. I had so many irrational fears as a child, I was scared of being kidnapped, sharks, the dark and so much more. I don’t want that for my children. So I choose to see the positive in everything. 

There is so much good that can come from this situation and that’s what I want to share and focus on. My dad always said, “what you focus on expands” (I don’t know who originated the quote) and he would also say “thoughts are things” I have heard sayings like this my entire life, and you probably have too. Now is the time to put it to practice. What are we focusing on? Because whatever that is we are creating more and more of it. What are we thinking about? Because whatever we think about comes to life literally. These quotes and others like them are powerful phrases that can change our lives. 

Are we focusing on negative things? Do we read things that make us worry or feel scared? Are we sharing our negative thoughts, negative pictures, posts, memes, etc? Are we promoting fear? 

Now is the time to live these quotes that people always repeat. Now is the time to show our children what courage looks like, how to serve others, and why faith is important. Now is the time to show our parents that they raised brave, caring and responsible people. Now is the time to look out for each other and create an impact in our community. If you have ever felt insignificant, now is the time to change that. 

If we want this to be over and life to “go back to normal” then we must all visualize healing, cleansing, health and strength. Say affirmations out loud every day or even close your eyes and imagine the virus being destroyed, healthy happy people leaving hospitals, children in school classrooms learning, older people walking their pets, and doctors making dinner for their families. We can say affirmations like: I am so grateful my body is healthy. I have a strong immune system. Today is the best day of my life. I can overcome any obstacle because God is with me. 

When my dad was in his last days, I found a quote online that says, “He’s preparing you for what he’s prepared you for.” I love that! God has already prepared us for everything. We can handle it all. Knowing that, let’s be positive and joyful for us, for our children, for our parents and for the earth. 

“Men are, that they might have joy” 2 Nephi 2:25

This post is mainly for me to write my thoughts and remind myself. Also, if Thea or Ezekiel ever face a rough time, they can read this. Every single day I wish my dad was here and I wonder what he would say about what’s going on. I know he would say the right things that would give me strength and confidence in our future. I hope he knows how much I need his words right now. Everything I wrote, I got from him. I love you dad.